On The Brink Of Madness

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why?

went to blogger since could not open this thing here for a long period of time. very unreliable isn’t it?

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Something is wrong with the wireless thingy here at home, I couldn’t get into my blog here in Friendster before. Now that I could, hmmmm hehehhehee what to say!

I’m really happy :D. More soon as I want to get on with reading Midori No Hibi hehehhehe, been reading since afternoon hahaha, not finish yet :D.

hehehe I’m so looking forward to Sweeney Todd: The Demon Barber of Fleet Street staring Johny Depp or as Honey calls it Swimming Toad (hehehhee just kidding )..the website says this Christmas but maybe just for them and not here, but all the same, so very looking forward to it, hmm it looks and sounds bloody and gruesome and its coming out this Christmas? well a different sort of feeling for Christmas then eh? :P…. Want to watch the Golden Compass too, looks interesting enough the trailer :).

Ah the sting part, I was stung (?) about an hour or so ago, and it hurts so much, my big toe, the feeling like burning and prodding inside..wow it hurts a lot..all I saw was a small tiny insect..very tiny and black..gosh it still hurts now..rub on Moo-Sang-Yu (that is not the correct spelling but it sounds like that hehehhee) and it relieved the pain a bit…just a teeny bit because it still hurts…hope no more stings tonight while sleeping or just being in my room.

• Oh and I told my mum already and I’m sure she will tell my dad
• I have bought several books from the second-hand shop, I bought The Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy, Sense and Sensibility, a Mills & Boon romance book, a true Dracula story (murderers with Dracula-ish tendencies ie drinking blood) and 1 Doraemon comic hehehe..so far have yet to finish The Hitchhiker and Sense and Sensibility..oooo I saw one of the books I’ve been looking for at Warisan Plaza and wow, the price is well…I don’t think I’ll be buying it there hehehe its almost RM40. But maybe after I finished the 2 books I mentioned earlier
• Have you seen The Black Sheep? ahahahhaha so funny
• I bought the Bug movie too but after my mom did some spring cleaning here, I can’t find it..the movie Bug staring the ever lovely Ashley Judd. hmmm I have to find it…

A new Christmas tree…Darcy and Kitty likes it, I like it too there is also a star but couldn’t put it on the peak because it might fall off hehhee..but it looks good and the great thing is, the lights are not musical lights hehehe…enough with the musical lights, get to hear it a lot in the office…anyway, have a Merry Happy Christmas with your family, friends and love ones!! Merry Christmas

hehehhee this morning when I opened the new only black socks I could find in a shop..such a surprise because it never crossed my mind that it would belong to a child hehehe and that the size would be so small hehe..oh well its only RM1.50, why didn’t it occur to me? hehehe I took  a picture of it, and I’ll post it here soon hehehe. I was looking for some black socks for a while now..thicker black socks not those that I usually wear… those just dont last long. so anyway, other black socks that I found are men socks so I didnt buy those. I found those cheap but small hehehe socks and bought it, and wore it too today hehehe..it was snug..or maybe tight (:P) and sometimes i couldn’t feel my toes and had to wiggle them a bit hehee..oh enough about socks eh? hehehe…

• its almost closing. and yet i still have to stretch myself to collecting other payments which is driving me insane..well almost..i dislike it..i ask for some info in the morning and they say they don’t know, then after lunch they say they will look into it, then tell me that they will give me the information later in the evening, come evening, nothing at all and all of a sudden they say, oh we do have the contact number for that particular person/company, i forgot to tell you..well you see, if i had that number before.. i could have called them and perhaps have some answer to tell HQ but hey..its not really that important, not the end of the world, but I just feel like it should/could be done today, why not do it today. now i have to do it tomorrow…hmmm….
• ugh more reports to do tomorrow..so many things to do, so little time…
• no news from SPA…*sigh*
• i heard something like a rat or mouse sratching the attic..*shiver* even Darcy and Kitty are looking at where the sound is coming from…
• there’s something weird going on in the store room at the office..maybe its the rat…it took a bag of fish food before…and left presents on someone elses desk too. maybe its stuck in the store room, trying to get out..*shiver*
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I think so, because i went looking for food hahaha..why stressed? because its almost closing time and its starting again the evil cycle of calling, people asking questions out of the blue and expect answers straight away, trying to remember all those that already been called and what they say, who said it, what they want, blah blah blah…*sigh* again with the ‘no details’ and having to call again, been spoken to rudely and wanting to reply rudely too (hahaha but don’t dare to do so). Oh my I’m getting a headache just thinking about it..so no more, till tomorrow morning then, the evil cycle starts again….

• in other stuff…a friend is going under the knife soon and i wish you well, you will be fine and healthy and happy!! be positive!! well I sometimes think its easy to say that (be positive) but when you put youself in their shoe (or is it shoes??) its hard…very hard. wish you luck my friend,
• its the holidays…for my siblings anyway…but its the holidays and they are hogging the computer, not cleaning the house, and eating my rice crackers!! actually i don’t mind them eating those up (though i do happen to want it to last well..for 5 days maybe, instead of just 2 days and finish already and leaving me with the plastic bag)
• don’t you sometimes wish you are near to someone…i wish it, then i could give hugs hahaha

my back aches…my eyes hurt, the right side of my head is throbbing and my throat hurts too. I hope I’m not getting sick. oh what i’d do for a burger and ice cream and lots of chocolate…oh well that needs money and even though already gaji, i don’t have any money with me ahahah..hmmm..2 paycheck already and i’m still not sure want to stay or not, and i haven’t apply anything yet. the long hours, the sometimes unfriendliness atmosphere, the unccooperative people, the difficult people, did i mention the long hours? oh i miss my cats, miss playing with them, miss the internet, movies, tv shows, music, my pillow, oh how i miss my long sleeps..sure we sometimes listen to music but the same thing over and over and over and over again..sure we have internet connection but i cant get online to yahoo or google only company related websites. tv shows? well i usually fall asleep now in front of the tv while watching House or CSI or any other shows/movies on tv. only during the weekends but then during the weekends have to clean house, yeah not so much help at home too. and ooo i get so hungry when i get home i could eat hundreds of burgers…well maybe just two hehe..but sooo hungry!! maybe because i only eat biscuits during lunch because of the no money situation right now, but then again when i do have money and i do eat rice during lunch, i get sooo hungry still..why is that? hmm…i dunno, havent made up my mind yet, we’ll see how it goes…

• my mom is coming home tomorrow YIPPEEE!! ahhaha i miss her
• my cats need baths they smell…i miss them
• i met 2 old friends from primary school they are both well and healthy. i mean met as in got in touch with them you know emails and phone numbers. still looking for a few old friends though
• i feel so sleepy, and yes i cant wait for saturday to come because its half day at work ahahahahahha…then i know i will get the monday blues ohlordhelpme…its the end of the month GAH!!
• oo i met another old friend tru YM this morning but couldnt chat for long because i had to go get ready for ugh….
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let’s see, lets start from the beginning which is this morning on the way to work. this car ful of soldiers, well men in soldier clothes, in a car dunno what make or year, anyway, they cut in front of another car and changed lane from left to right. i’m on the left lane behind them. i accelerate because well there’s no more car in front of me. then idiotically those men cuts in front of me..almost hit my side!! crazy people!! wahahaha i honk my horn at them twice or more i think hahahaa…hmmm..then at work, each of us get 1 hour lunch time between 12.00 to 2, either 12.00 to 1.00 or 1.00 to 2.00 pm. well, today she was late for a whole 30 minutes. i dont exactly mind it if, that is if, there was not so many many phone calls to answer, and what again with a customer yelling at the front desk. GAH!! i admit i became frazzled, because one thing to answer the phone and listen to what they ask in the middle of the din and then checking up on what the customers want, and then, doing my own work which i am still learning about, a bit slowly. and then, getting money from the men. some are nice about it, you know like a gentleman, but others…you know, maybe i should just be rude to them or maybe just more assertive, but what if i am assertive and yet sound like a female dog??? i need to work on that but really what i want to rant about is this, give me the money as soon as possible complete with the informations and not to be condescending to me. i respect you and please respect me too. and then lastly, want to go home already and there i was in the car, dark, i put the car on the reverse or so i thought and push the fuel pedal and away i go to the front and BANG, i hit the curb. woah…i saw 2 people looking at me but its dark so maybe they were just looking at the car and not the driver hehehhe..thank goodness anyway for the curb and not another car or a big hole. but silly me eh? so dark and so kelam kabut. well i manage to come home safely even though a bit of a close hit on a truck or something. HUH…now i’m at home, have eaten already, petted Darcy, surf Dlisted, drank tea..i’m feeling abit tired..You know, i hope i get many overtime money for tonight and the nights before and the nights to come and then pay up my PTPTN debt, and have some more to spend hehehe. can’t wait to do it all over again tomorrow and the next day and the next, next, next….i’m being sarcastic…goodnight!!

I have a lot to learn..I really mean lots and lots of new things to learn and quickly too even though they say ‘pelan pelan’…you know, it looks weird when typed but when you say it you know what it means. Anyway, they really seem friendly but of course, still, me malu malu kucing. Don’t really know what to say, I’m not good like that in conversation things. Hmm not sure I like the border they have around the desk, but there is an aquarium right next to me, the printer and the fax machine. There are many reports, many type of notes, have to always email each other, then count money, call people up, make statements or invoices and then if customer calls, have to help them and etc…. How do you become used to the process and know the people, I mean how long will it take till that familiarity kicks in? I’m not going to give up…I’ll learn as much as I can.. to my abilities and hope I am able to do the job A-okay…